my head hurts. I keep stressing myself out and making things harder for me than it already is. I’m mentally and physically tired of everything. just let these 2 days be over already so then i can have my break and relax! 

The only thing keeping me going is knowing that if i just stop thinking i’ll be okay and that if i just focus on my own self-growth, everything will be okay again. But the problem is i find it so difficult to do it and i just don’t know why? why is it that i keep doing destructive habits to myself? why can’t i just easily let things go? all these thoughts give me a headache. i can barely sleep at night anymore. I’m so fucked.